Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Thinking+ Feeling+ Behaving= Being= Psychology

Today was my first ever session with a teenager...maintaining the confidentiality i just want to put down my feelings...i was all confused to conduct this session...i have done workshops with teenagers but individual sessions with someone..umm ya done it before but with someone in college..it was my first ever session with someone more younger than that..i was telling hundred things to myself..before that teenager came in the room i was trying to figure out the 'cool' ways to talk to him, one thought led to another, and i was already sitting in school...there were so many things that came to my mind...there were so many things on my mind at that time and no one to talk to..see when you are not a very good student( let me define good student: marks above 75%{ when i was in school, now it is 95% }, obedient, does not ask why and many other questions, does homework on time, is not naughty, and all sorts of things which i was not, )your other concerns or issues are as good as negligible..well sometimes a lot of intelligence can also be a reason to ignore them but ya not in my case...i mean all the emotional issues, questions about why things are like they are, why must, why not do something, why not be naughty, why not watch few channels or TV shows and many more...as a teenager there are so many things that you are going through: study pressure,peer pressure, understanding emotions, understand ways to deal with them, make new friends, sometimes break old relations, understanding your body, physical changes in your body..oh my god...as all these issues came to my mind i could just see myself as a teenager who is totally confused, trying to understand things at my level, may be wrongly..and that's when i felt, it would have been so nice if i had a counselor to whom i could go and talk without feeling ashamed of or scared of...i know that eventually i got the answers to my questions in all possible ways, some through right ways and some through as people call it bad experiences or wrong ways...as i was in these thoughts there was a knock on the door...it was that teenager...and as we started talking i was totally into his world...after the session i was wondering what was it that made it so easy for me to connect and build good rapport...may be it was because i empathized with myself or may be something else...i don't know..but yay...am happy..

Monday, July 25, 2011

Thinking+ Feeling+ Behaving= Being= Psychology

I remember my excitement when i took up psychology as my special subject. It was COOL and DIFFERENT. It was not very well accepted by my parents and grand-parents but ya, i decided to go ahead with it. It was something very close to my interest which was talking to people, helping them sort out their problems. But today when I am a Clinical Psychologist, I can see that it is totally different. Anyways going back to my college days, I really wonder what drives people to do what they really what they want to do? Or how one decides their goal for rest of their life? Anyways with all the confusion, but still with the pretension of being firm and sure.. and then started this whole journey to The World Of Psychology- The Science of Human Mind...
With all the struggle, new experiences and experiments three years of BA were over. .

In these three years with all sorts of people around, with all sorts of experiences and with a more definite reason i decided to move to Mumbai for doing my Post Graduation. At that time i realized that if you have decided something for yourself and you know that it is going to work out for you and give you, okay not fully but at least show the way to what you want, you don't feel the need to convince people...and so didn't I. I just told my parents that I am going to Mumbai..and at that point in time their support or rejection did not matter to me..because i had decided to be at the place i wanted to be.
I realized that the change had already begun in me.
I still don't know if that was because of Psychology r the age i was in, may be both..but ya change happened..i did not know what was there for me in mumbai..but ya today when i look back i sure love it, and become more and more happy about the decision i made...Decision to take up Psychology, Decision to give myself a chance and decision of taking risks...